And I was close
To making it
But you came and pulled the rug
I figured, now my time is up
I woke bathed in sweat
I felt I couldn’t be taking it
Knowing all my childish dreams
Will get washed away by plain

Reality
Hits you in the face when you don’t need it
Sends shivers down your spine
Stops all your dreaming
Whispers in your ear „Don’t start believing.“
In this year of drought
But you’ll make it out
Anyhow

Oh, I was at home
They said I shouldn’t be leaving it
And in this room without a view
I felt I‘d slowly fade into
The darkest void
And lost in sketchy old memories
It seemed that everyone I knew
Was not with me anymore

Reality
Hits you in the face when you don’t need it
Sends shivers down your spine
Stops all your dreaming
Whispers in your ear „Don’t start believing.“
In this year of drought
But you’ll make it out
Anyhow

How you got right here
You don’t remember
Signs of the time
Oh, you survived
See the world pass by
As you’re getting weary
All of your days
They get erased

You just wish that you were
Younger
Falling softly
In her arms
Yet knowing all the question
With the answers
Left
Far out of sight

At times your mind sits straight
And you see clearer
Rooting your thoughts
You feel you got a lot
When you jumped headfirst
Into the cold
She dried your hair
And kept you warm
She fed your dreams
With all her soul
You’ve seen the best
And now you’re bound to fall
You understand it all

But you wish that you were younger
Younger
Falling softly
In her arms
Yet knowing all the question
With the answers
Left
Far out of sight

When uncertainty is over
And the light has hit your eyes
When you’re sort of getting older
And life hits you by surprise
I’m sure you’ll be paying your debt
But right now

You should follow her instead

So, buckle up
And be ready
Listen up
You gonna find yourself in need
You got to make your way through disbelief
‘Cause all specters will come in as you bleed
So, buckle up
And be ready

All your crying has got you nowhere
Oh and you find it hard to be
Trying so hard to stay sober
She says “Why don’t lose yourself in me?”
And I’m sure you’ll be paying your debt
But right now
You should follow her instead

So, buckle up
And be ready
Listen up
You gonna find yourself in need
You got to make your way through disbelief
‘Cause all specters will come in as you bleed
So, buckle up
And be ready

I’m older now
I’m wide awake
Turning 34
Didn’t build a house
Didn’t plant a tree
But I’ve sure been on the road

I’ve seen all different people
Know what they do
Some just hide their frown
And others bring you down
But all will show up
Chasing after you

But I’m not planning to go
I’m not up for a race
I’m in a different space
I don’t care about your rules
And the more I live the more I know
That I will die alone

It’s not that I don’t like you
You’ve got your charms
But I’m getting tired
When you seem to lie
About the person that you say you are
You think the world is yours, boy
Oh no, it’s all on loan
And we both know
What feeds your mouth and makes your momma proud
Will send you to your comfort zones

But I’m not planning to go
I will make my way through the love and the pain
I don’t care about my bones
And the more I live the more I know
That I will die alone

No, I’m not planning to go
I will fistfight me
Until I’m all set free
And for you I’ll build a home
But the more I live
The more I know
That I will die alone

I was raised by wolves in the desert
Feeding my will to what they need
And I recall you opening heaven
When you brought in a leash
Oh, you were torn
But I followed blindly
No, I’m not naive or anything like that
I just felt lightness
Now turning to burden
‘Cause it’s not working
It never has
Your words are so certain
They cut through my eyes
Trouble was welcome
Right from the start
This is not
Always hoping
All forgiving

Love
Left in a drying well
How could you walk away
You were bound
I gave my life away
How could you ever say
I’ve changed
Oh, I’ve changed

Oh, and it is true
I’ve lost my balance
Cast under your spell
You’re a shipwreck pulling me under
And my lungs are gasping for air
It’s just not working
It never has
Your words are so certain
They cut through my eyes
Trouble was welcome
Right from the start
This is not
Always hoping
All forgiving

Love
Left in a drying well
How could you walk away
You were bound
I gave my life away
How could you ever say
I’ve changed
Oh, I’ve changed

Brother Louie, who are you …
Seem wiser than me
Talking to me in weird tongues
Words I can’t read
And I try to follow through
Always asking myself
“What does your work say about you?”

Oh, you could’ve been louder
Than I’ll ever be
Using your voice to bring
Depth in the shallowing sea
Speak from your heart
Is this really your purpose
Do you want to confuse us
Trying to forget the news
Why do you want to draw the outlines of bad tattoos

Mr. Stellar, I have doubt
I’m trying to sing along with all these people
But the words won’t come out
I’m sure we all feel the ambivalence
Escape is luxury
And it seems like that what we want
Isn’t always what the world might need

Oh, we could’ve been louder
Than I’ll ever be
Using our voice to bring
Depth in the shallowing sea
Speak from your heart
Is this really your purpose
Do you want to confuse us
Trying to forget the news
Why do you want to draw the outlines of bad tattoos

It’s not like I’m not trying to dream myself away
But balance is queen
And the urge is to speak up and use the privileges we inhale
And you can write of escape
I hope it’s just a phase and know that people change
Oh, I’ve grown so tired of modern days

I should be running away
But I don’t
I will stay
The light of the day finally fades
But I won’t
I lie awake

And I can see that lighting and thunder are on their way
I’m not afraid
‘Cause as long as I’m breathing
I can still have faith

No one will put you through pain
You buttercup
I’ll keep you safe
You shall be spending your days
Full of joy
In summer rain

And even though that lightning and thunder are on their way
Don’t be afraid
‘Cause as long as you’re breathing
You can still have faith